MY PRECIOUS DOLL =)

Like every girl, I loved playing dolls so much. Especially barbies have an important role in my childhood. I admired them. I always thought how beautiful they were, but I barely had them unlike other dolls. I had a baby with green hair, blue eyes and huge smile. It was my best friend. When I went somewhere, I carried it with me. I kissed it so many times in a day. Later, I had dolls more beautiful than it but it always stayed special for me. I didn't love others as I loved it. This connection between me and it disturbed my mother. She thought I shared everything with it. She was right. I didn't talk to my parents so much. I told everything to my doll. I spent my whole time playing with it. When I became 10, my mother gave it to someone I didn't know. Firstly I thought it was a good idea, I couldn't do with it anymore, it wasn’t real but it didn’t prevent from missing it. By the way, one of the reasons my mother didn't like my green headed doll was that she thought my doll took after 'Chucky’, a doll killing people, one of the horror films of that times. I was so angry at my mother she didn't let me watch. She said 'the time you grew up'. Anyway, my little sunshine flew from my house. Even if I miss it sometimes, I think my mother made a right choice sending it. Now sometimes we talk about dolls. My aunt has a grandchild whose age is 4.She tells us her and her fondness for her doll. She says 'Nida had a doll like that, too, didn't she? 'My mother says 'Yes but I gave it' and my aunt says 'you did right. If you didn't do that, she would avoid having contact with you. It isn't normal to love it so much.' and when I hear that, I just smile now .

BOOB TUBE

Today, I want to talk about TV and TV addiction.It is one of the most important problems both for me and most of the people.Experts call it 'boob tube'.Since my childhood,I've watched TV in my spare times maybe for my parents let me.I watched so many TV soaps.Even in the year of OSS,I followed approximately 12 soaps.I didn't watch all of them I followed some from trailers but anyway they are business for me.I guess I didn't wanted to spend time for me because then I was going to think about myself,my worry,anxiety and it would bring about stress on me.Whatever it is, I accept that it is my addiction.Actually when I came to the dormitory,I realised I could live without it  but then I used PC instead of it.In my spare times I watch something again :).I know everybody needs to think.People cannot do it with TV.However, most of us escape from thinking since anything makes us sad may become an obsession.It is a pleasure or not, I watch TV when I am bored like many people.If experts say to me 'you are stupid', I can't say I am not.When I started to write about this topic, I was going to write its harm but it came to me attractive on this way.It is not only harmful also it is a good friend :).I suppose  I love this boob tube.

TRUE LIFE I AM AN INTERNATIONAL STUDENT

1.Because US have more opportunities to practise.There is creativity and teamwork there and it has a good environment.

2.Because there are agencies at China and they help students find a school which they wanna go.Providing information about the school they can choose whatever they want.It is one of them's reason.Other's is that her grandfaher was living at US.He has a friend who graduated from ONU.He recommended him to put her in since it is a small university.It is easier to get accustomed to there.

3.In China, you have to choose a major .Once you can enter the college,you cannot change your major.Moreover, China is strict.They give your books.They give your planning and tell you figure out it.You cannot make mistakes.America is a little bit flexible.You can do much more things besides it than just studying for your degree.

4.It is approximately 30.000dollars of course it depends on which department you study in ,your room.

5.Americans are diffrent from Chinese.Americans are social, outgoing.While chinese emphasize on indirect communication,americans use direct one.You have to tell what you think.

6.Cultural shock refers to anxiety of feelings,surprise.disorientaiton,confusion in different or unknown cultural or social environment such as a foreign country.You don't know what is appropiate what is not.I've thought of going to the US for education because of my foreign language.I want to learn their pronounciation,idioms,informal language etc very well.If I go there,I think that I might not like their foods,I miss my country.I also axperience cultural shock

BEING A METU STUDENT

METU is a very difficult place to get accustomed to.It took my 2-3 months.You are far away from your family and friends.When I came here, staying in dormitory was an inordinary thing for me.I hadn't stayed in even my friend's home.I had to stay with different three pople there.I admit that I knew one of them from the high school life but we were not close.In the end of the first week,I actually run away :).I was thinking that I wouldn't be happy there.It was a trouble to eat,sleep...Then I've got accustomed to it.My house is just far 70km from Ankara,but the last week,I realized that I hadn't gone home for three weeks.In addition,it is very beautiful to do whatever I want.I love going out at nights.My father most probably wouldn't let me go.I love springs at METU.It has a very beautiful forest.Trees are so nice especially in those time of the year.You admire them.METU is another world but sometimes I feel as if it didn't have an exit just like a prison.You are in the same environment.The way you walk every day is the same.As academic, the thing I mostly hate is 8.40lessons.In METU, there is an absenteeizm problem as three sessions for every lesson.Since I can't wake up,I miss the lessons.I wish it was enough to pass the exams but it's not enough and you have to get good marks.It's not university life in my dreams and not like that told me.Except for them, there are less lessons here than those in the high school.In the high school,I had lessons for 40 hours,here we have just 20 hours.Furthermore, we have a spare day.It's nice.I love METU people.They don't care about you.There is a lot of tolerance whatever you do,think,wear.Moreover,METU's facilities are amazing.Its social groups,fitness centers,natural environment,buildings(the worst is Education Faculty;but it is our destiny:)).Now, we are individuals.We are on our own.We are responsible for ourselves.We are alone.In this way, being at METU is nice.I'm glad to be here.

HEARTLESS

This is one of my favourite songs. It is the song performed by Jim Sturgess.Moreover, it is one of the songs from 'Heartless'(2009) in which there is a young man,Jim Sturgess,with a large heart shaped birthmark on his face.I don't want to tell the story.I didn't like it because it has monsters it is so fantastic but I watched the film because of Jim Sturgess :).He is very handsome and his voice is nice.This song is the song at the end of the film.Its music is enough to love it.Firstly I am impressed by Jim then by the song :).Actually there is one more song I like in this film.For the ones like the first song, I can give the link of the other I like: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJB6n18dgBk .This is slow but it is also nice like the previous one.

Come back, and make the world work again
Come back, and put an end to all this mess
Come back, and prove the world's not heartless
Come back, and prove the world's not ... heartless.

I think these words are meaningful enough to explain emotions.What you think ? 

MY PAST AND PRESENT

I wanted to talk about the differences between my past and present.I realised that what I liked to do in the past isn't loved anymore.In the past, I liked writing.Yes also as you think, I kept even a diary when I was 12.I wrote in it my boyfriend of course :).Then it was nice; but now, I am unwilling to write when I am forced to do that.I was thinking that I didn't like writing only in English, but I felt the same also for Turkish.I realised that in Turkish lesson while writing a compositon .I am so sorry about it.I loved writing once upon a time.I lost it.Anyway, an other difference that I am sad about is crying.In the past, I wouldn't cry.My brother would take my doll and hit it and then I would cry by saying 'Don't do please don't I am coming I don't hide hit me not her' :).Yea it is funny.Which of us didn't do that? I know I know those don't have a brother :).Now, I cry everything for example while I am watching a romantic film, angry about sb, hearing what I don't like, even while sb is quarrelling.Sometimes I feel coward,too emotional but at the same time I am not.I don't know.I haven't solved everything about me yet;however, feeling is the most beautiful thing in the world.I miss my childhood so much and I like it also.It is the evidence of my existence.(I liked that :))....I don't know whether it must include major, minor ideas.I just want to say what I feel.See you at the next page guys ;)